What If?

I have a little man who loves to chat and his favorite thing to do while rambling is to ask never ending 'what if' questions. He will fire questions at you for as long as you will answer them and even when you think you have given him the mother of all answers, that is surely going to put an end to his cross examination, he fires another 'what if' that makes your previous answer sound ridiculous!

Even tho his questions are more of the random, make no sense pondering, that just comes with a 5 year old's brain, for example... "what if a dinosaur came into my room and ate my pillow? or what if we all had hands coming out of our ears?' I can't help but see his little wheels turning and feel his mind wandering in all directions when he asks all his 'what if's'. It is such an innocent wonder, harmless really. But part of me aches a bit because I know all too fast that precious innocence and harmless questioning will fade and it will turn into what we adults do all too often... worry, question, over think, analyze rather than openly wonder and think crazy, hair-brained ideas just for the fun of it.

Although I am doing, right now in this blog, what I fear for my boys... over thinking, analyzing something that doesn't need to me needled over. I mean really, he is just rambling off the wall questions, enjoy it Abbey... stop going into something deeper than it really is!!! But I digress, and I can't stop! I want our boy's hearts and minds to be filled with as much peace for as long as possible. The world we live in takes over too fast as is. We all grow up and have to face things (some good, some bad) all too quick! And if I can somehow mold the crazy 'what if' questions into a more healthy exploration of the world that surrounds our boys, rather than a skeptical worry or inefficient wonder that always leaves them looking back rather than gazing forward... I will sleep better at night! 

As an adult, I am so guilty of wondering 'what if'... what if I had gone here instead of there, what if I had talked to this person rather than that person, what if I had turned right instead of left... what if, what if! In the life given to us, the life that is already mapped out before us, 'what if' questions can overwhelm and leave us all lacking in the precious gift that was given to us. It does no good to take the joy out of the here and now to give way to what was and what could have been!

We all look to the world around us for signs, for help, for anything to keep us motivated and assured that we are moving in the direction we are supposed to. I think the key is to do that but do it with an open heart, non-judgmental mind and a heart that brings with it peace to accept what may come in or out of our life. Sounds easy enough... right?! Well, I will admit for me, it isn't... but I want better for our boys. I promise to cultivate their God given path. I will give my all so that they can learn to own their destiny, embrace their mind's eye in a reverent way. 'What if' away, my boy.... but don't forget to live the life that is right in front of you!!!

"Life at its fullest is this sensitive, detonating sphere, and it can be carried only in the hands of the unhurried and reverential... a bubble held in awe"

-One Thousand Gifts

Always - Abbey

Monday Motivation

Around Casa de Lewis, we were all a little sluggish today. Long weekend but just what we needed! No stress, boy's sports, little bit of work, tad bit of cleaning, whole lotta fun with family and friends!!! But none the less... we were all dragging today! So here is some motivation... I need it, they need it, hopefully you need it too!!!

This song is a Jam.... 

When I hear it I feel like it's me and my hub's theme song right now! 

It's Time babe, it's our TIME!!!!

This weekend and then again today, I was sent messages from girls who, just like me are trying to do better with their health and wellness. We all are on our own journey and have chose Herbalife as our wellness raft! They started at different times than me, but we are all in it together! They told me respectively they have lost 10lbs and 3.5lbs.... WHOA!!!! 

Hells YAY!! 

Motivation at it's best....

Our boys... 

Although my grocery shopping trips are 10 times faster and about $10 cheaper (at least) because I am not suckered into buying gum, beef jerky, toys, gatorade, etc... I miss their spirits. I get great motivation when I see a pic of them or remember a moment from this summer and laugh at the silliness these two bring to my life! The mundane grocery store trips, the laundry folding, the cleaning and cooking all serve a purpose for these guys! I do it for them, and I smile knowing that they are better for it! I am improving them every day I do these things.

 Without them our lives would be hallow!

One more jam... 

Just cause it's a good one.. no hidden meaning, just makes me dance in the car!

Turn it UP!!!!

One last picture quote...

No philosophical meaning, just simple words that sometimes need to be said!

(sorry for bad language)

You only have one today, only one life.. yesterday is over but tomorrow is waiting for you! Nothing will get done if you don't put one foot in front of the other. Only you can move forward and make it happen! Cherish your loved ones, try not to judge that which you don't know, hug longer...

and be you!!!!

Motivation comes at you constantly... just gotta want to see it!

Always - Abbey

Little Man, getting BIG

 So, this week our little man started back to preschool. 

I call him our little man, for one because he will always be our littlest, our baby, the last part of my heart that I put out into this world. And second, because he is just a man, always has been! Funny beyond his years, whit and words that never stop... he is just too much to explain sometimes! This is his 'senior year' at the preschool that we have adopted like a second home for over the last 8 years, and 2 boys. I admit it freely that I am a sap about most everything, especially our boys... and when it comes to them and this place, their 'school', that sentiment runs even deeper!

Although I was excited for this school year to start, because let's face it we all needed the space, I was also sad thinking that this was the last year of memories for us and our little man at this precious school. He is more than ready... He walks into the joint like he owns it. He high fives teachers and dishes out hugs like he's running for President. 

That's just who he is...

To us, he is our entertainer, our never for a lack of words, constantly moving, always smiling, little man. He is his Daddy's mini-me, my snuggle bug, and his brother's shadow! 

I forget how fast time goes until I look back or see other littles walking in the door, when they look like they should still be in an infant carrier instead of heading in for a day of preschool. Time is precious, our babies are even more precious. The joy in their eyes, the wonder in their souls... you can see God's grace in their every step.

Although I know this year will speed past but also saunter on slow enough for me to relish each moment... I'm not going to lie, if I could freeze time, I would. Not for long though, because there are more moments to be had, more glorious times to spend and memories to make! That's how God designed it. He wants us to look at what we had, rejoice in what we were given, but always keep our eyes gazing forward, because that which he gives always leads us to even more grace.

So, here's to another school year... 

Go find God's grace, little man. Take it all in the best you can, show the world what you are made of.

But don't ever forget that you are loved for who you are...

Always - Abbey